I once but not once

I once managed to say I am leaving
without looking back

I once managed to remember a lie I had said in grade 3
with a little nudge to my noodles

But not once have I managed to get you out of my mind
I wonder if you have eaten
forgetting that we share the same mouth

I wonder if you’ve taken a bath or had time to put your feet up
forgetting that I bath you and make you relax

I wonder what is worse,
worrying about you whilst you are still attached to me
or worrying about you when you are 990 kilometres away from me

How can I make you part of me for longer?